HAPPY 14TH SILLYDARLING!

I LOVE YOU! <3

went music ensemble with darling.

the nice lady is giving me a discount! :D

love it.

P/S. i still want my leather & denim jacket.

i love my darling boyfriend.

can finally log into blogger. computer's getting so fucked up. darling said i have HIGH IQ but low EQ. how accurate is that? (: those scary dreams are haunting me again. not ghosts or monsters but water! im totally freaked out by the thought of drowning or trapped underwater. everytime im under stress, i'll have those drowning dreams. but this dream is different. this time, i can swim up and breath, but i didnt. i kept telling myself, just a little while more, just a little while. i jollywell know that i will die, but i carried on holding my breathe. i think i need to see a doctor. i cant sleep well with this kind of dreams coming up so often.

met up with vivian on monday. went bugis, haji lane & bugis street. all i got was a pretty ring that said SALE. vivian kinda changed. she used to be so (demanding?), (loud?), (fierce?). but now, she's more lady-like. LOL. she's lots of fun, but crappy still. HAH. asked if she would accompany me to the next 6A's gathering if there's one. she would if nothing clashes. i want to meet up with all the ex-classmates and see how everyone's doing. but then again, im kinda scared to meet them. everyone's so capable and all, at least they could get into a poly. im the only lousy one who went to a private school. D: im not smart, rich or talented. though this years, i realised that only under extreme stress, can i improve. i can deal with much more things in life than anybody else i know. other than academically, i dont lose out too much. how many of you actually worked hard to pay for your own school fees? how many of you go home and all you do is worry about money? i want to be just like any other girls. i want to be able to go shopping, partying, enjoying myself. but i cant afford to.

its never easy for me to make friends or keep friends. my so-called friends walked out of my life just as simply as they entered. that made me hold on even tighter to my only loves.

my darling boyfriend been through so much with me. we quarrel and argue alot but he loves me wholeheartedly and i know that he's the guy who'll treat me right. i love the way he hugs me, kiss me and cares for me. other than daddy, he's the only guy who dares to scold me when im in the wrong. but daddy spoilt me. i took him for granted. this time, i wont do the same. i'll cherish and love my boyfriend as much as he deserved.

darling, i love you!

as for sasa my bitch, she's the only one i trust now. i can tell her anything without worrying that she'll betray me. we can gossip about anybody else, but we never meant any horrible things we said about each other. she's like a sister, bestfriend, girlfriend, sugar, spice, and everything nice combined. hundreds, millions, gazillion times better. (:

stupid bitch, i love you too!

long long post! (:

busy creating new blogskin, livejournal layout and figuring twitter skins. >.<