self-love♥

back to where i belong.

2009-08-16T21:48:00.002+08:00

Offically switched to Livejournal again.

LOL.

blogger is full of problems.

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14TH. falls like dust.

2009-08-12T22:33:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 14TH SILLYDARLING!

I LOVE YOU! <3

im gonna buy this electric guitar! :D

went music ensemble with darling.

the nice lady is giving me a discount! :D

love it.

P/S. i still want my leather & denim jacket.

i love my darling boyfriend.

very much.

can finally log into blogger. computer's getting so fucked up. darling said i have HIGH IQ but low EQ. how accurate is that? (: those scary dreams are haunting me again. not ghosts or monsters but water! im totally freaked out by the thought of drowning or trapped underwater. everytime im under stress, i'll have those drowning dreams. but this dream is different. this time, i can swim up and breath, but i didnt. i kept telling myself, just a little while more, just a little while. i jollywell know that i will die, but i carried on holding my breathe. i think i need to see a doctor. i cant sleep well with this kind of dreams coming up so often.

met up with vivian on monday. went bugis, haji lane & bugis street. all i got was a pretty ring that said SALE. vivian kinda changed. she used to be so (demanding?), (loud?), (fierce?). but now, she's more lady-like. LOL. she's lots of fun, but crappy still. HAH. asked if she would accompany me to the next 6A's gathering if there's one. she would if nothing clashes. i want to meet up with all the ex-classmates and see how everyone's doing. but then again, im kinda scared to meet them. everyone's so capable and all, at least they could get into a poly. im the only lousy one who went to a private school. D: im not smart, rich or talented. though this years, i realised that only under extreme stress, can i improve. i can deal with much more things in life than anybody else i know. other than academically, i dont lose out too much. how many of you actually worked hard to pay for your own school fees? how many of you go home and all you do is worry about money? i want to be just like any other girls. i want to be able to go shopping, partying, enjoying myself. but i cant afford to.

its never easy for me to make friends or keep friends. my so-called friends walked out of my life just as simply as they entered. that made me hold on even tighter to my only loves.

my darling boyfriend been through so much with me. we quarrel and argue alot but he loves me wholeheartedly and i know that he's the guy who'll treat me right. i love the way he hugs me, kiss me and cares for me. other than daddy, he's the only guy who dares to scold me when im in the wrong. but daddy spoilt me. i took him for granted. this time, i wont do the same. i'll cherish and love my boyfriend as much as he deserved.

darling, i love you!

as for sasa my bitch, she's the only one i trust now. i can tell her anything without worrying that she'll betray me. we can gossip about anybody else, but we never meant any horrible things we said about each other. she's like a sister, bestfriend, girlfriend, sugar, spice, and everything nice combined. hundreds, millions, gazillion times better. (:

stupid bitch, i love you too!

long long post! (:

busy creating new blogskin, livejournal layout and figuring twitter skins. >.<

i miss the rich old days.

2009-08-08T22:43:00.001+08:00

sigh.

i was just feeling proud about myself for not crying over a movie,

and here i go again.

reason:

NO MONEY TO SHOP!

2009-08-08T21:03:00.003+08:00

ohyes, when i was window shopping with honey and boon just now,

i saw this leather jacket at Uniqlo.

absolutly cool!

but pricy.

its a fucking $99~!

gosh. i need a leather biker jacket.

&the denim jacket from mango.

$129!

i want to go shopping.

for cheaper but similar jackets! :D

2009-08-08T21:00:00.001+08:00

okaaaaaaaay.

i need to learn guitar.

nothing could be better.

2009-08-08T19:45:00.002+08:00

There's nothing i rather do, then stick with you forever.

i love you silly!(:

picnic @ sentosa.
lantern festival celebration @ park.
thailand trip w bitch.
fish spa w honey.
shopping w bitch.
straightening hair.
:D

he says, she says, who listen?

2009-08-06T13:54:00.003+08:00

不知从哪个时候，我所为的父母已经成为了我的房客。
家也只是个累了才回去睡觉的地方。
i gave up expecting anything from this family.

2009-08-06T12:25:00.002+08:00

Received this email few days ago.

quite true huh? :D

Cancer:
Positive:
Emotional and loving
Intuitive and imaginative
Shrewd and cautious
Protective and sympathetic

Negative:
Changeable and moody
Overemotional and touchy
Clinging and unable to let go

Taurus

Positive:

Patient and reliable

Warmhearted and loving
Persistent and determined
Placid and security loving

Negative:
Jealous and possessive
Resentful and inflexible
Self-indulgent and greedy

&some others..

Capricorn

Practical and prudent
Ambitious and disciplined
Patient and careful
Humorous and reserved
N:
Pessimistic and fatalistic
Miserly and grudging
Over conventional and rigid

Aquarius:

P:
Friendly and humanitarian
Honest and loyal
Original and inventive
Independent and intellectual
N:
Intractable and contrary
Perverse and unpredictable
Unemotional and detached

Pisces:

P:
Imaginative and sensitive
Compassionate and kind
Selfless and unworldly
Intuitive and sympathetic
N:
Escapist and idealistic
Secretive and vague
Weak-willed and easily led

Aries:

P:
Pioneering and courageous
Enthusiastic and confident
Dynamic and quick-witted
N:
Selfish and quick-tempered
Impulsive and impatient
Foolhardy and daredevil

Gemini:

Adaptable and versatile
Communicative and witty
Intellectual and eloquent
Youthful and lively
N:
Nervous and tense
Superficial and inconsistent
Cunning and inquisitive

Leo:

P:
Creative and enthusiastic
Broad-minded and expansive
Faithful and loving
N:
Pompous and patronizing
Bossy and interfering
Dogmatic and intolerant

Virgo:

P:
Meticulous and reliable
Practical and diligent
Intelligent and analytical
N:
Fussy and a worrier
Overcritical and harsh
Perfectionist and conservative

Libra:

P:
Diplomaitic and urbane
Romantic and charming
Easygoing and sociable
Idealistic and peaceable
N:
Indecisive and changeable
Gullible and easily infuenced
Flirtatious and self-indulgent

Scorpio:

Determined and forceful
Emotional and intuitive
Powerful and passionate
Exciting and magnetic
N:
Jealous and resentful
Compulsive and obsessive
Secretive and obstinate

Sagittarius:

P:
Optimistic and freedom-loving
Jovial and good-humored
Honest and straightforward
Intellectual and philosophical
N:
Blindly optimistic and careless
Irresponsible and superficial
Tactless and restless

juliannaire.

2009-08-03T13:36:00.005+08:00

bored to death. almost.

sch from 4-7pm.

WTF~

mama's sick. :/

YEAH. :D

lol. cos im scared to be home alone.

few days ago got ppl come to my blk suicide.

upstairs leh!

damn it.

want die go other place la.

come here scare me. D:

may God blast you.

childish but im really affected ok.

im sick of school.

faster finish diploma faster go work liao la.

by then, dont even know if i want to continue with degree.

no matter what happens, i will be here.

but when im pissed or stressed, let me cool down.

The hottest love has the coldest end.

2009-08-01T10:53:00.006+08:00

我会很爱很爱你一百个世纪

很爱很爱你没人能代替

i'll love you for another century.

hp&internet is down.

contact julian if you cant find me.

going lan L4D w/ darling& bitch.

我会很爱很爱你黑夜到黎明

很爱很爱你四季不休息

the one who dont mind giving in all the time.

the one who will do anything to see me smile&laugh.

the one who will see me in a mess and still thinks im beautiful.

the one who will hide his unhappiness just to make me happy.

the only one who thinks im not being selfish.

wise man says

2009-07-28T11:38:00.003+08:00

DAMN.
3more modules.

3-26aug: Entrepreneurship & Intrapreneurship
26oct-9dec:Travel & Tourism Management.
7jan-25feb:Operation & Quality Management.

D:
but my Paradox supervisor called to ask if im interested to help her out at the new boutique.
pay increasement! :D
YEAH MAN!

WORKING IS FUN.

2009-07-27T17:03:00.003+08:00

Aug'09

10MON
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
12WED
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
19WED
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
20THUR
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
21FRI
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
24MON
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
26WED
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox

you & i.

2009-07-26T22:22:00.002+08:00

work was fine.
kinda slack.

going tampines library to study tmr.
aircon! :D

luck is coming. :D

2009-07-25T12:08:00.003+08:00

GREAT NEWS!
i found a weekend job! :D
all thanks to classmate keith.
thanks! (:

anyway, tmr gonna be the first day of work.
working for m1 roadshow! :D
$7/hr.
honey might be joining me for work next week onwards.

all is well. :D
i need money.
but i need my silly even more.
so he's gonna work with me :D
most probably.

because i believe.

2009-07-24T23:10:00.002+08:00

sweetie honey is bringing me out tmr!
:D

i told him few days back that i always wanted to go to the NDP.
&silly's bringing me to watch the preview tmr! :D
together with his gay partner.
damn, why are you all snatching my silly? D:

first it was tankwenboon.(who's sup to be my "brother"- he calls me jiejie! :D)
now, its his classmate kevin. D:

but thanks to him, i get to go to the NDP preview. :D
honey managed to get the free tickets from him!

I LOVE MY SILLY BOYFRIEND.
ALOT.

败给你说话的眼睛
败给你微笑的魔力
不知不觉想每天跟你在一起
败给你少一根神经
爱上你这是我的命
我们世界原来就等这默契
(:

i cant wait for:

national day.
lantern festival.
my cousin's wedding dinner.
christmas.
chinese new year.

i cant wait to get:

itouch.
my hair straightened.
my diploma cert.
a full-time job.
rich.

alright.
gonna stress this again.

love.

my.

silly.

honey.

boyfriend.

yeo.

julian.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

much.

he needs reassurance quite often. (:

guardian angel.

2009-07-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

my life would suck without you.

you made me feel so special.

2009-07-20T22:22:00.002+08:00

like the guy daddy mentioned.
the guy who will love me, dote on me, care for me, protect me, think for me.
all these years, no other guys treated me like you do.
not even close.

i love you.
all the way, till the end.

went vivo with honey.
watched HP6.
not as nice as i expected.
kinda disappointing D:

we decided.
if we cant get a toy pom, we'll get a yorkshire terrier.
:D
so cute.

i love my darling silly honey sweetie!

i love my silly honey.

2009-07-18T08:01:00.002+08:00

i need money.
D:

feeling so poor as compared to before.
last time, whenever i go shopping, i would have at least 50bucks with me.
now, i can only afford to window shop. D:

met up with my bitch ytd after her school. before my school.
went t1,tm&cs windowshop.
i totally looooooooooooove this dorothy perkins top-dress.
its on sale alr! $29.
damnnnnn.
and i only have 5bucks.
D:

when i get my pay, i have to straighten my hair.
been saying that since forever.
lucky for me, shanice intro me this cheap place. :D

i want to buy that top-dress.
haven bought any clothes for long ok. D:

currently still looking for more part-time jobs. :D
let me know if you have any to intro!

angry tears vs blood ties.

2009-07-15T20:47:00.003+08:00

Parents think they know what the kids of today are going through. Kids of the 21st century are going through a lot more pressure, stress and aggression than back when your parents were kids. Things have changed. Smoking, alcohol, depression, everywhere you turn. The streets aren't safe. Unfortunately, parents aren't that smart.

i dont understand why most teens dont want to let their parents read their blog or know about their life. i love to let my mama&daddy know about everything that is going on with my life. dont come telling me im feeling this way cos my parents dont care about me. its not forever that they're less concerned. its only the recent years. few years back, my parent and i had very close r/s.

of cos, i had my rebelious age.
which was sec2. yeah, when i was looking like a total nerd and stuffs.
my parents were worried i would mix with bad company and stopped me from going out. i was feeling very unhappy. mainly because, none of my friends were bad bad. plus, i dint do anything wrong to deserve that.

but i managed to convince my parents to trust me.

tips:
1. talk to your parents about how you feel.
dont be afraid to let them know how unhappy you feel. they will be upset, but it wont be for long. all parents love their kids. they want to be the best parent too. as long as they know how you feel, they'll reflect and try to change.

2. if your parents are still stubborn and refused to give in, (like my mum),
write on your blog or diary or just a piece of paper.
let them see it accidently on purpose.
it will make them "listen".
cos when you speak to your parents, when they heard something they dont like, they can always cut you off and walk away.

3. force them to face the fact that you're grown up.
LOL.
wad i did was to run away from home. it made my parents worried. but the good thing is, it helped them realised how much they cant afford to lose me. HAH! and ofcos i took good care of myself. cant let my parents think that im doing that out of childishness and stufff. ok, running away from home aint exactly very mature anyway. i made them realised that i CAN live without them. but i choose to live WITH THEM. because i love them. and i want them to love me back. lol.

but ofcos, dont do it more thaan twice.
at the third try, your parents will ignore you. LOL.

WikiHow Tips.

Locking themselves in bed rooms could mean they are getting depressed.
Don't get upset or yell at them, as that will just make everything worse.
Try to be interested in what they are interested in.

GOD BLESS YOU.
MAY YOUR DADDY& MUMMY UNDERSTAND YOU AS MUCH AS YOU WANT THEM TO.

but most importantly, show them that they can trust you, and that you are mature enough to make your own RIGHT decisions. (:

♥13months.

2009-07-13T11:34:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 1313, silly! ♥

i love you so so much.

i may not be the best you can ever get. but at least, my love for you is true. i know that im quite sensitive at times, but when i said i can forgive and forget, i meant it. everybody makes mistakes. as long as you are willing to change, you deserve a second chance. and i will love you even more. after going through so much together, im much much more determined. i will not let any other things affect us. you're the only guy in this world who can make me feel this way.

so loved and doted on.

i'll never let go of this sweetsweet bond between us.
you're my forever love.
♥

dont come asking me why 13months since we broke up twice in between.

cos, we never really left each other.

ever.

thats why.♥

Green-eyed monster.

2009-07-11T15:15:00.008+08:00

"FRIENDS"
you know that you can no longer be friends

when you start comparing with each other.
when you say/do things to make "your friend" look bad.
when you gossip about them all the time.
when you dont keep their secrets.
when you embarrass them.

"LOVE"
Jealousy differs from envy in that jealousy is about something one has and is afraid of losing, while envy refers to something one does not have and either wants to acquire or to prevent another from acquiring.
Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values.

come to think of it, im not jealous when "my bf flirts/ hooks up with another girl".
im only jealous when i feel that the girl is much better than me.
if that girl's not my match, i'll just laugh over his choice.

(NO OFFENCE!)
:D doing it the chinee-way.

im okay with people copying me.
because it shows how interesting i am.
seriously, if you're like freaking boring, nobody will read your blog/ look at your facebook/ talk to you.
let alone copy you. (:

possible for ppl who dislikes you to copy you?
since they dislike you so much, why bother copying?

singapore is such a small place.
i believe that its possible to go to places where your friends just visited.
especially when they say you must go there.

lol.

KFR w/ bitch and sillyhoney.
miss it so much.
DSI with sillyhoney @PP.
miss it alot.
DD w/ sister.
DD w/ vian.
watch HP with sillyhoney.
meetup w/ bitch.

dont worry, this time, im not saying about kuanling.
lol.

<3 sillyhoney.

copcats should eat shit.

2009-07-10T20:10:00.002+08:00

heheh.
honey & i decided to do something really fun!
but im not gonna tell anybody about it.
incase SOMEBODY decided to copy us again.
:D

HAH! eat shit, copycats!

endless of blessings.

2009-07-08T16:49:00.002+08:00

my pinky is sick. >.<
cant connect that often.
gonna bring her for repair.
sigh.

i love my boy.
we're much much happier now then before.
he loves me and dotes on me.
he cares for me and is willing to give up anything for me.
but me? i guess i still gotta learn.

met my bitch when i was really down.
im really glad i have her by my side.
had a feeling we're drifting apart and i may end up losing her.
but when i msged her, she met me straight away.
im so touched. (:

even if everyone's gonna turn their back on me, at least i know for sure.
that i'll never lose my boy & my bitch.
i love you both.
very very much.
<3

what the hell.

2009-07-07T12:10:00.006+08:00

我为你付出了这么多，你却无法了解我的心意。
我应该做什么才能让你知道，我是真的真的很爱你。

i hate to make choices.
but if i really have to make one, my boy will come first.
because he's the only one who can make me feel this way.

my silly honey only.

2009-07-04T13:18:00.002+08:00

alrites, this post is dedicated to my sillyhoney.

he's jealous of everybody else, because,

i didnt mention him in the previous post.

how silly. :D

but still, i love this boy very much.

and nobody can take him away from me. (:

we went through so much together, this time, our love is much stronger.

You're my hunny bun, sugar plum, pumpy upmy upmy upmkin.
You're my sweetie pie.

You're my cuppy cake,gumdrop,Snoogums-Boogums,
The apple of my eye!

And I love you so, and I want you to know that i'll always be right here.

And I love to sing this song to you
Because you are so dear!

2009-07-03T16:34:00.003+08:00

havent been blogging for long.

29june-
darling came over in the morning.<3
went out for lunch.
walk walked.
went home.
shanice came over at 10plus to countdown to my bday.<3
sasa&chinee came over about 12am to suprise me. <3
sent sasa down.
chatted at voiddeck with chinee.
went back home to sleep.
30june-
woke up at 6.30, woke shanice up.
went back to sleep.
woke up at 7.30, woke chinee up.
went back to sleep.
darling came at 10.30.
went back to sleep till 3plus.
prepared.
went chompchomp.
went kovan for pool.
stayed at chinee's house.

1july-
met babe&hunks at clarkequay for dinner.
the manhattan fish market!
their platters are nice.
freaking nice.<3
dearies bought me 17donuts instead of cakes.
:D

WOW.
and thanks people who msged to my other lines.
incase you havent know, I CHANGED MY NUMBER ALR!
dont msg to those two number alr.
91196873 & 84447633
new number is 8367****
ask from me.
thanks for the presents and cards.
headphones.
diva necklace.
phone charm.

love you guys.

sacrifices.

2009-06-29T00:54:00.003+08:00

From left;

Cheryl, Angie, Josephine, Shanice, Kristle.

NG.

met up with cousins for early celebration.
kbox @ cineleisure.
dinner @ sushi tei, ngee ann city.
:D

thanks for the treat! (:

met shanice & her kid sister, shongyi, at woodlands.
took mrt to somerset.
walked around cineleisure while waiting for shuxian & shujun.
saw shannon working at NUM, talked awhile.
accompany cousins lunch at xinwang.
aunty came to fetch shongyi home before i managed to take a photo with her.
she's cute but talkative. lol.
kbox from 4-9pm.
walked to ngee ann city, sushi tei for dinner.
trained back home after that.

my cousins & i dont look alike.
the only family traits is,
our big eyes.
O.O

:D

2009-06-28T00:03:00.003+08:00

damn.
im supposed to plan where to go with my cousins on sunday, 28june.
but i cant think of anywhere to go!
>.<

shanice coming over in the morning.
meeting shuxian after 1plus.
cheryl's meeting us at 8plus.

and i cant think of where to go.
D:

singapore is so boring.
shopping?
movie?
sing k?
eat?
chill?
>.O

gosh, im a lousy planner.

shanice seems kinda down.
cheer up girl, you have da jie here for you!
:D

please understand.

&sweet, i'll do anything for you.
as long as you're happy, thats what i'll do.

2009-06-27T00:21:00.004+08:00

rewind-

back to that girl you love.

yesterday;
dint manage to watch transformers.
somebody la, came so late. D:
went KFC for L-INNER.
went katong shopping center for karaoke! :D
people who went:

KRISSY THE PRETTY GIRL.
SASA THE BITCH.
JULIAN.
TJL
TWM
KJH
TKB
SSQ
NMT

silly lost his precious. >.O
shanice came to stay.

today;
went downstairs for br-unch.
went to woodlands with shanice.
went julian's house.
IRONMAN-ed & SOF-ed.

LOL. yeah man!
KRISTLE NG PEI SHAN can play SOF! :D
im fucking pro lah! >.O

alrites, i shall go sleep alr.
1.09am :D

2009-06-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

i'll give you a chance to prove them wrong.
you better not let me go ever again.
<3

i <3 you!!

2009-06-26T12:08:00.006+08:00

2009-06-25T09:02:00.004+08:00

today's plan.

transformer
karaoke

hoping it'll turn out just fine.
i dont want to lose you as a friend.
but love is fucking selfish.

当时是你一手把我推开的。
我真的不知道要怎样对待你。
对你好，你会对我有所期待。
对你坏，我自己会过意不去。
对不起。

damn your bloody day.

2009-06-24T20:08:00.003+08:00

urgh, fuck off.
you guys made me fucking pissed.

watched i love you, man with julian today.
bought 2 nail polishes.

started off with 4.
silver, red, electric blue, metalic blue.

bought 2 more today.
orange&pink.

the face shop nail polishes are nice.
other than the pasar malam ones.

2009-06-23T23:09:00.002+08:00

<33

sillysillydumbdumb.
sorry.

2009-06-22T23:30:00.001+08:00

you thought they understand.
but in actual fact, they dont.

2009-06-22T14:21:00.002+08:00

thursday, 25june2009.

movie
kbox with cliques.

sunday, 28june2009.

kbox/dinner with cousins.

monday, 29june2009.

dinner
chill with babe and hunk.
ton with shanice(?)

tueday, 30june2009. <3

booked by julianyeo.
chompchomp with clique.

idk when im meeting my bitch&gf. ):

my rootbeer <3

2009-06-22T14:19:00.001+08:00

6/22/2009 12:44:56 PM
screamTHREAD; JULIAN: I WILL ONLY HAVE ONE SWEET SPIRIT

dont shed those tears.

2009-06-22T02:04:00.001+08:00

Funfacts:

Kangaroo means "i dont know" in Guugu Yimidhirr language.
Crocodile tears cannot be authentic because crocodiles cannot cry; they lack tear ducts.

2009-06-22T00:34:00.000+08:00

*hints!*

the last kiss.

2009-06-21T12:00:00.002+08:00

julian with the fake ugly monkey.

the reason why these monkeys have long nose:

is, they told too much lies. :D

dont they look alike?

zooooooooooooooooooo

2009-06-20T23:21:00.002+08:00

met julian & zoo-ed.

not much photos, but its really fun.

fun facts i learnt from the zoo:

grey kangaroo can hop up to 13 km.
crocodiles have weak jaw muscles, a rubberband around its mouth can prevent bites.
new born baby kangaroos are even smaller than 8weeks old foetus.
falla ella is about 7palms tall, pony is about 13palm tall, horses about 30palms tall(?).
elephants can be really cute.
horses are fucking smelly.
you cant take much nice pictures at the zoo with just 2ppl.

never felt so alone.

2009-06-19T11:15:00.002+08:00

and i wont forget.

go on.

2009-06-18T21:48:00.001+08:00

time flies. 28062008

everyone have changed. certainly.

2009-06-18T00:37:00.001+08:00

(drag me to hell)-ed.
staying over at chinee's house with ssq.
boring.
):

2009-06-17T12:05:00.000+08:00

today's plans.

mahjong
drag me to hell
dinner

havent met up for MJ for so long.
people going:

kristle
chinee
vanessa
her bf
kwenboon
mingteck
shaoquan
jiahui
weiming

:D

no plans for tmr yet.
no plans for tmr's tmr too.

raise me up, when i was down.

2009-06-17T09:49:00.000+08:00

for now, i'll have to walk alone.

damn.

2009-06-16T22:49:00.004+08:00

back on track.
things will be fine. right?

i wished there's someone i can hug.

2009-06-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: coke
2. Last phone call: mummy
3. Last text message: kwenboon
4. Last song you listened to: 解脱
5. Last time you cried: 2hours ago

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yes
7. Been cheated on: yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no.
9. Lost someone special: ya
10. Been depressed: yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12.red
13.white
14.black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Been a good girl: yes
16. made lotsa friends: no
17. Laughed until you cried: ya
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: no
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: yes
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 99999999
23. How many kids do you want to have: 2/3
24. Do you have any pets: no
25. Do you want to change your name: no
27. What time did you wake up today: 10.30
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: bloghopping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: moving on
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 2hours ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: everything
30. What are you listening to right now: tv
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : no
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: the silence
36. Whats your real name: ng pei shan
37. Nicknames: krissy, poopoo
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac sign: cancer
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: poi ching
42. High School?: hihs
43. College?: erc
44. Hair colour: red-brown
45. Long or short: long
46. Height: 152
47. Do you have a crush on someone?:no
48: What do you like about yourself?: idk
49. Piercings: 3
50. Tattoos: no
51. Righty or lefty: right

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: no
53. First piercing: ear
54. First best friend: jane
55. First sport: swimming
56. First vacation: australia
58. First pair of trainers: ..

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: coke
61. I'm about to: continue
62. Listening to: tv
63. Waiting on: everything to be over

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: 1boy 1 girl
65. Get Married?: yea
66. Career?: own

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger:older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: stomach
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: r/s
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: ..

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes
79. Sex on first date: no
80. Broken someone's heart: yes
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: yes
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: yes
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date:no
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today?: yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody? no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 13june2008
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: 13june2008
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: no

you did it.

2009-06-15T10:31:00.003+08:00

and im shocked beyond words.

he loved me.

2009-06-15T02:20:00.000+08:00

and just wanted to let you know
i really thought of bringing you to disneyland
i was thinking of you throughout the whole day
everything i did i was thinking kristle would like this kristle would like that
going with you would be so much better than going with my family
but the tickets are like $70 per person so ex!!!
if can i sure bring you come one i'm not just saying
i miss you ok!
love you!

yes, i know its you.

2009-06-15T00:55:00.002+08:00

i hate you
fuck you bitch.

you know i totally meant S-L-U-T.

EXPLAIN.

2009-06-14T18:34:00.002+08:00

im doing so much to get you out of my mind.
not to get a new r/s.

i admit, i still love you very much.
so what? this r/s not gonna work out with us both being so stubborn.
we have to give in to each other. not just one way.

till then.

我是不是你最疼爱的人

2009-06-14T16:52:00.004+08:00

in order this time.

hans breakfast at centuarysq
walked around cs
then to tm
then to t1
then to library
lunch at tm
bus-ed home
disappointed

my 肚子 very pain.
fever is gone, but the pain remained.

dont assume if you dunno anything.
nobody can gets on to a brand new r/s right after a break up.
and who ever said anything about getting together?

Main Entry:
sad
Part of Speech:
adjective
Definition:
unhappy, depressed
Synonyms:
bereaved, bitter, blue, cheerless, dejected, despairing, despondent, disconsolate, dismal, distressed, doleful, down, down in dumps, down in mouth, downcast, forlorn, gloomy, glum, grief-stricken, grieved, heartbroken, heartsick, heavyhearted, hurting, in doldrums, in grief, in the dumps, languishing, low, low-spirited, lugubrious, melancholy, morbid, morose, mournful, out of sorts, pensive, pessimistic, sick at heart, somber, sorrowful, sorry, troubled, weeping, wistful, woebegone
Antonyms:
cheerful, glad, happy, joyful

保持沉默，什么都不要说

feverish

2009-06-14T01:23:00.002+08:00

im scared.
so so scared.

i want to have somebody looking after me when im sick.
):

i swear its not a date.

2009-06-13T22:36:00.003+08:00

In random orders.

movie was alrite.
had dinner at LJS.
still trying to get use to life without you.
peach hong cha still tasted the same.
im feeling sick.
nobody can ever replace you.
i dont want to hurt anyone.
or to be hurt.
i love you.
i loved you.

Your birth tree is
Apple Tree, the Love
Of slight build, lots of charm, appeal and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious,
adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and
tender partner, very generous, scientific talents, lives for today, a carefree
philosopher with imagination.

fuck the world.

2009-06-13T17:10:00.003+08:00

i hope you know it hurts so so much.
im trying so hard to put on a smile.
it hurts me and everyone around.
it hurts to see mummy worried.

i held back my tears to convince everyone im fine.
but if i tell you that im over you, would you believe?

A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.

ghost of our past

2009-06-13T10:20:00.002+08:00

fuck happy 13.

not working anymore.
its a scam lo.
D:

ghost of girlfriend's past tonight!
thanks buddy.

mj @ boon house on wed!
chomp2 after that!
happy happy!

never gonna trust love again.

2009-06-12T23:38:00.001+08:00

i miss him again.
):

trying so hard to keep myself occupied.
fuck 13.

without you, i'll be just fine.

2009-06-12T11:41:00.003+08:00

not as unwanted as i expected. (:

got to thank so many ppl!

SASA:
dearest bitch! thanks for your hugs and hugs and more hugs.
really calmed me down alot.
really glad to have you.

MERYL:
babe! thanks for accompanying me to watch HM! (:
had great laughs with you!
looking forward to meet up more often.
tsktsk. (:

CHINEE:
thou you're kinda far away, but you gave me some advices thru the phone calls.
appreciated.
thannnnnnnnnnnnnk you, MEH-BEH? :D

SHANICE:
sister! thanks for coming all the way to tampines to accompany me.
and im not acting strong, I AM STRONG!
muahahahahahahha! :D

the rest of the guys:
thanks for the "applications".
LOL!
made me laugh dao du zi tong.

at least i know that, all of you will be there for me!
and yes, i'll move on.

分开以后

2009-06-11T21:58:00.001+08:00

你离开我会过得更快乐
可对于软弱的我
回忆就足够

im dying.

2009-06-11T20:59:00.002+08:00

it hurts to know you're not affected.
it hurts so so much, but i can do nothing.

why is it that, im thinking so much about the happy moments, but still cry?
i fucking hate myself.

i cant sleep well,
or eat well,
or think hard,
or stop crying.

one day, you'll miss the good in me.

2009-06-11T16:30:00.002+08:00

hot date with hot babe.

thanks babe, i love you!

the origin.

2009-06-11T15:45:00.003+08:00

initially wanted to change to fuckyou.bs
but its taken.
so i tried fuckyouback.bs
also taken.
so ended up with fuckyouagain.bs

rest assured, im a pure virgin.

letting go.

2009-06-11T11:01:00.002+08:00

its taking my sleep away.

dreams and dreams..

how do i stop that?

why is it so hard, even after i let go?

zero.

2009-06-11T01:27:00.002+08:00

i hate this empty feeling in me.

flashbacks of the happy memories..

"im all about you, im all about us..."

the last words.

2009-06-11T00:51:00.002+08:00

i love you, but its not working out.

goodbye.

i miss you

2009-06-09T20:03:00.003+08:00

today's the third day you're ignoring me.
i miss you so much.
what exactly did i do that made you so angry with me?
i really dunno.

i so want to feel your hug & kisses right now.
but i know its impossible.
this time, we're both being very stubborn.

i love you, but i dont want to be only one giving in so much.

i want to be doted on.

2009-06-09T13:42:00.004+08:00

i feel so pathetic.

mummy, daddy, meryl, sasa, chinee &of cos julian.
they're the only close ones i have in this world.
ever since daddy&mummy started their thing, i've been depending so much on the rest of them.
my parents arent loving& caring so much about me anymore.

as for now, all i want is for you to love me, to dote on me.
im sick and tired of giving in.
you never knew how much i've put into this relationship.
much much more than anything else.

i really love you so much.
and i dunno what to do.
why dont you tell me instead.

tell me what to do.